Its a long awaited post that i just wanted to record these feelings. I feel lazy at most nights after Jaekan is asleep just to blog or reflect on my feelings and things happening though its needful especially for someone like me who used to write a diary. Anyway, 2014 has been a challenging year. Not just i noticed i became negative and constantly vent it out, i suck at work and home-front too. I was also pregnant but it was ectopic and well, doc has to take it out. I was also rather sick towards end of the year with a bad fever 39 for 5 days and a persistent cough for a few weeks. Not to mention haze period coughs and sleepless nights. My frustrations was also mainly due to the moody hubs who just entered insurance and he was really stressed and touchy.
Though all down (even spiritually), God has been faithful. He shown himself faithful during our Church camp, He bless me with a church and friends, He provided during down times and above all, i praised Him even for my ectopic pregnancy. I think He saved me. We were confused over what was actually happening inside me when my pregnancy hormones kept increasing and baby cannot be found. Jon believed that i was pregnant and did not want me to go back to the doc and just let the baby grow. I didn't know what to do. It was good that we returned to the doctor because that day i did, i think i could have died of internal bleeding and bad pain if i didn't. Fetus gg to explore in my tubes. Imagine that! Anyway God is sooooo GOOD.
I am not good in writing blogs now. I just kept rattling on..but who cares..no one really bother reading my blog. Anyway, i just want to record my feelings and thoughts. thats all.
