Tuesday, October 28, 2014
"May our Almighty God show us today how to live in the security of His shadow, rather than in shadowy fears of our own making."-taken from daily bread
‘If you stay in this land, I will build you up and not tear you down; I will plant you and not uproot you, for I have relented concerning the disaster I have inflicted on you. 11 Do not be afraid of the king of Babylon, whom you now fear. Do not be afraid of him, declares the Lord, for I am with you and will save you and deliver you from his hands. 12 I will show you compassion so that he will have compassion on you and restore you to your land.’-Jeremiah 42:10-12
After being in the social service for some time, i seen a few families of misfortune or even a series of hardship that perhaps i never really see in my daily life. Credit card debts (its a frightening tool that i feel that cutting myself off but we just sign a few instalment plan for our new home), accidents (that can really cause physical disability), broken relationships, illness/diseases, mental health issues (that goes in cycles that looked that it can never been broken). I realized God's protection upon me, Jon and Jaekan + our families. He has been ever so gracious and I felt my little struggles so little. But at the same time, i do fear. I do fear about the uncertainties that can hit anyone. I fear about the evil credit card. (thank God we have no bank loans) I fear for the emotional/mental/physical health of Jon as he is our sole breadwinner. These are real fears. I start thinking about how i can plan for the future, how i can create a safety net for myself and Jaekan.......(all these planning is good..)
Well, at the end of day, i cannot rely on all my planning nor live in such fears. Fears does not come from the Lord. It rob my trust in Him, or my ability to live in His security. It robs me from my Joy. It just made me smaller, weaker and NOT in Jesus.
I decided to rebuke these fears (not that we don't expect uncertainties and that we expect all time prosperity) but these fears are not of the Lord. We live in Jesus and certainty trust Him that He will be our source of help, strength and provision in terms of need. The Lord is my shepherd and I shall not be in want.
i'm leaving at ;
10:02 PM;
