Stagnant?

Stagnant: (http://www.dictionary.com/)
1. not flowing or running, as water, air, etc.
2. stale or foul from standing, as a pool of water.
3.characterized by lack of development, advancement, or progressive movement: a stagnant economy.
4. inactive, sluggish, or dull

Yesterday we had an argument. :( I think I over-reacted and I felt sad even when i am typing this. Tears just naturally filled my eyes.

Whenever i think of Jon, I think of a man who really loves, cherish and treasures me. He would do his best not say anything that hurt me nor do anything that harm me. I could doubt myself but I couldn't doubt that he loves me.

Maybe, i am really not putting as much effort as I would like to. Maybe I am boring.. :(

Anyway, i still upset over last night. :( I am kinda tired. I have been a while now. I am trying hard and I am kind of tired trying. Anyway, this song below is for you..Jon.

"neglected the time, we spend together.
took you for granted many of times.
did not treasure nor cherish
you with all my heart."
maybe that its all too late.

So sorry for hurting and making you so worried
So sorry for letting you down
I know that its nothing i could do to make it up
I hope you will give me this chance..
This chance.."

Jon, I love you so much. So sorry that I always to hurt you, made you worried for me.....

i'm leaving at ;
6:17 PM;